Thoughts and Feelings at the Halfway Point

Several years ago when my naturopathic doctor suggested I go on the HCG protocol, I told him I did it as a teen and it doesn’t work for me. I am so glad I decided to take the plunge and do it again. Truthfully, the first two days of gorging have probably been the most difficult days for me. I had looked forward to eating all the things I normally don’t allow myself, but instead of enjoyment, I felt sick to my stomach. I use the homeopathic HCG (HHCG) and it is easy, inexpensive and very user friendly. I thought I’d be hungry and dreaded eating only 500 calories a day, but I have not experienced any hunger. Mouth hunger, yes, when I wanted to chew something…so on those days I made sure to choose raw fennel, celery or cabbage as my vegetable so I could experience lots of chewing.

            Exercise is not recommended but I wanted to continue with my daily walks. Looking at my food/weight log, I notice that my larger losses have been on the days when I didn’t walk or exercise. Now I have an excuse not to! My dogs are missing their daily walks, though, so I still plan to take short walks with them.

            My goal is to get down to 120 pounds. Once, as a young adult in my 30s, I weighed less than this. At that time I had followed a specific food plan in the 12 Step Recovery group I was in and got down to 110 pounds. For one day. Really, for one day. The next morning I got on the scale and it was up a bit and I rationalized it, believing that it was just a fluctuation. Haha. It never went back down that low again. Ever. My usual feeling good weight was around 130, so 120 would be a totally new experience and a thrill. By the way, I am only 5 feet tall and the charts say I should weigh 113-126. That would be realllllly nice and I am not far off!